When the One I’m Fighting With Becomes the One I’m Fighting Against
"Di na posible; malabong mangyari. Di ko naman maaaring ipilit."
'Di Na Posible: Song by Similar Sky
I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve repeated these words to myself, trying to understand everything.
The relationship we once fought for, the love that was so clear, now feels distant and blurry because of time and things left unsaid. At some point, I started to notice little changes. The small things we used to do for each other disappeared, we laughed less often, and the silences between us started to say more.
We used to face the world together, strong in our love and as a team, believing we could overcome anything. But now, I feel lost and wonder where that connection went. I look for signs of the love we once had, but all I find are reminders of what we used to be.
"Pa'no lalaban kung ikaw ang kalaban?"
How can I keep fighting when the person I’m supposed to be fighting with has become the one I’m fighting against? I never thought I’d have to ask this question, but here I am, facing the tough truth that the person who used to hold my heart is now the one hurting it the most.
I see it in your eyes—the way they don’t light up when you see me anymore. I feel it in your touch, the way it lacks the warmth and assurance it once had. And it’s in your words, or perhaps the lack of them, that I hear the truth we’ve both been avoiding: something has changed, and it’s not just our love but us too.
We’ve become strangers to each other, lost in a space where love used to guide us. I’ve tried to keep our connection alive, but it feels like I’m holding onto nothing. Every time I try to close the gap between us, it just seems to push you farther away. And it hurts—more than I can put into words—to realize that the person I once fought for is now the one slipping through my fingers.
"Pa'no lalaban kung ikaw ang bumibitaw?"
I never imagined that the day would come when I’d have to fight to keep us together, but even more painful is the realization that I’m the only one fighting. You’ve started letting go, slowly at first, in ways that were easy to dismiss—busy schedules, missed calls, forgotten plans. But now, it’s clear as day: you’re no longer here, not in the way you used to be. And that makes me wonder: What’s the point of fighting when the person I’m fighting for has already given up?
It’s deeply sad to see that our love has turned into something we have to fight for, instead of something that just exists naturally. When I look at you, I see signs of the person I loved, but those signs are fading because we’re growing apart. I want to reach out, to pull you back, and to remind you of what we had, but I’m scared. I'm scared that no matter what I do, you’ve already made up your mind. I’m afraid that trying to save our relationship now will just delay what’s going to happen anyway.
I never wanted us to end up like this, where our love feels like a battle. But here we are, with me still holding on while you’re letting go. I want to keep fighting, but how can I when it feels like I’m fighting against you, against the very person who once fought by my side?
The hardest part of all of this is knowing that I can’t force you to stay. I can’t make you fight for something you no longer believe in. So now, I’m stuck deciding whether to keep fighting for what we had or to accept that it might be time to let go.
I wish things were different and that we could return to how things were before the doubts and distance. But wishing won’t change what’s happened. And so, I’m left with one question: how can I fight when the person I’m supposed to be fighting with has become the one I’m fighting against?
